CIA experiment turned me from simp to savage

found this in declassified MKUltra files (mom walked in)

Author

ELITE MASCULINE
November 26, 2024

Yo.

AGHHHJ, this is hard to write.

But a couple of years ago something happened that destroyed me, and I MUST share this because I know some of you are in the same dark place I was.

Let me paint you the picture of my life at 20:

I'm living with my parents in this cramped apartment in downtown.

My room is a classic "failure to launch" setup - empty Pringles cans stacked like some depressing art installation, and my prized possession: a gaming chair I bought with my birthday money.

Every morning was the same sh!t:

  1. Wake up at 11:47 AM (weirdly specific, I know, but that's when my third alarm would finally win), grab my phone, and spend 30 minutes scrolling through Instagram, looking at guys my age actually doing something with their lives (or now that I think of it, they were pretending).

  2. Then I’d fire up League of Legends because why the fvck not?

Already missed my morning classes anyway.

"At least I have a girlfriend," I'd tell myself.

Sarah (not her real name lol) was sweet, but we were both just... ***existing.***

She was getting really into fem*nism (had dyed her hair blue and everything), and I'd just sit there nodding like a puppet whenever she'd rant about the patriarchy.

The irony is that I had no patriarchy in me.

I was its biggest victim.

Sure, I'd drag my ass to the gym 2-3 times a week.

Had an okay body, could bench 185.

But what's the point when you're dying inside?

Here's the really embarrassing part...

Between League sessions, I was j*rking off. A lot.

Morning session.
Afternoon session.
Night session

My browser history was a fricking psychological horror story.

I remember this one Tuesday perfectly:

9:48 AM: First alarm (ignored)
10:23 AM: Second alarm (snoozed)
11:47 AM: Finally up
12:15 PM: Skip Statistics class
12:30 PM: League of Legends
2:45 PM: First fap of the day
3:30 PM: Order McDonald's delivery (McChicken, large fries, Sprite)
4:15 PM: Back to League
7:20 PM: Sarah texts
7:21 PM: Ignore text, second fap
8:45 PM: Parents ask about university
9:00 PM: Lie about attending classes
11:30 PM: Third fap
12:15 AM: Lay in bed hating myself

I was living a lie. Every. Day.

When people asked what I wanted to do with my life? "I'm exploring my options."
When my parents asked about classes? "They're going great."
When Sarah asked if I was happy? "Yeah, of course."

Lies. ALL of it.

The breaking point?

It was 2:13 AM. Just finished my third fap of the day (rock bottom, brother). Caught my reflection in my phone screen - that pale blue light showing me what I'd become.

My mom walked in (forgot to lock the door like a dumba*s). She saw me with some tears in my eyes at my desk.

"Are you okay?"

I said yes.

Another lie.

But that NEXT night changed everything.

Because I discovered something that ***shocked*** my DYING masculinity back to life.

And no, this isn't:

  • Another gym routine promising gains in little to no time

  • Some Silicon Valley app to schedule your way out of being a pvssy

  • Another 'passive income' scam or Ponzi scheme

  • Some rehearsed pickup line while naturals are drowning in wet pvssy

  • Another mindset book by some reformed nice guy who still asks permission to get hard

It was something that ripped my eyes open and forced me to FACE MY CASTRATED REALITY.

I found it buried in declassified CIA documents from the ‘70s while I was doom scrolling some Wikipedia articles.

A psychological experiment they abandoned because it was "too effective" at triggering primal masculine instincts.

The kind of stuff that made test subjects so naturally dominant they had to shut down the whole program (some MKUltra stuff).

The documents were heavily redacted, but what I pieced together... holy fvck.

It was something that finally revealed why I was stuck in this endless cycle of being everyone's emotional tampon…

… watching real men claim what should've been mine…

…and letting my ancestors' warrior blood turn to soy in my veins (hurts to admit, but your DNA is screaming in agreement).

It all came down to a specific frequency in male speech patterns.

A subtle shift in how naturally dominant men process and respond to challenges.

The CIA found that every true alpha across history—from Alexander to Patton—unconsciously used this same pattern.

When they tested it on average guys, something primitive awakened. Within days, their testosterone levels increased substantially; women started responding differently, and other men began instinctively deferring to them.

But here's the wild part:

They discovered this was our natural state. 

Modern society has just conditioned it out of us, deliberately suppressing this neural pathway until we became... manageable.

ELITE MASCULINE